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2008-09-26T22:03:00.002+08:00

Completed Paper 1s today.
I wrote drama serials.
It was so annoying can, i ransacked my brain for ideas, my pen ran out of ink.
Pathetic, it was the only pen available in my pencilcase, yucks.

English was okaye.
At least, i had something to write.
I wrote about Describe a time your inattentiveness led to serious consequences.
LOL, i remember my mum smacking me the night before.
I fell asleep when i needed to look after Alson.
Hahas, so i wrote about it.
Twilight gave me alot of inspiration, idk why.

Chinese was a disaster.
Yucks lah.
I didnt want to write the penpenbuping thing.
I dont know what will make me so angry.
so i wrote the Lixiansheng thing.
i wrote the daughter tio stalk, father took her run away,
then the man go take a stone and wanted to hit the father,
daughter saw, pushed father away, tio stone, fainted.
Father saw blood, hes afraid of blood, dk what to do.
I was seriously listening to Rainbow Centre for inspiration lah.
Sat close the window what.
comfy :D
They sang the Barney ily song, cooool :D

Went home with Amanda, Wanteng and Jiaxuan
seriously, squezing each other. lols
I saw YihFang and Raeesha! ♥
Raeesha didnt see me though
still as cute as before
YihFang also larhh
shes is st. Johns, coooool :D

I want 6F larhhhh :X

2008-09-24T22:56:00.002+08:00

♥ 回家吧 ; 回到最初的美好 .

稻香词：周杰伦曲：周杰伦
对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨跌倒了就不敢继续往前走为什麼人要这麼的脆弱堕落请你打开电视看看多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去我们是不是该知足珍惜一切就算没有拥有还记得你说家是唯一的城堡随著稻香河流继续奔跑微微笑小时候的梦我知道不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑乡间的歌谣永远的依靠回家吧回到最初的美好不要这麼容易就想放弃就像我说的追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了为自己的人生鲜艳上色先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色笑一个吧功成名就不是目的让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义童年的纸飞机现在终於飞回我手里所谓的那快乐赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了谁在偷笑呢我靠著稻草人吹著风唱著歌睡著了哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎珍惜一切就算没有拥有还记得你说家是唯一的城堡随著稻香河流继续奔跑微微笑小时候的梦我知道不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑乡间的歌谣永远的依靠回家吧回到最初的美好

my boyfriend's new song! :D
稻香 is so niceyyyyy .
the lyrics so artistic, tune also very nice !
ahahahah, he so talented la !
and you know his new look in his new album <魔杰座> is so damn shuai O:
:D :D :D ♥

Fine, i copied this chunk from ZiYue's blog
though i know none of you will bother to read the lyrics
LOL, but i copied it cause i agreed with it
only that its in a chunk and im lazy to sort
i agree with everything lah
accept for the boyfriend part AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA xP
kidding lah
ZiYue, must let me attend wedding or not youre so dead ^^

Ohyeah, i've cheered up
cause
whatever?
i think that ...
shucks, whatever

GOD, im sooooo gonna rob the album with ZiYue lahs
the fact that im a severe spendthrift and i cant have a piggy bank as it will be so damn empty that even 5cents will be used up
5cents is still money okaye
ok, i need money, seriously
so depo maybe i shall turn into a beggar
nah, not that pathetic xP

today's weather was freakingly freaky
i was so damn cold
cause i was sitting under the fan
History was Hohoho
we used the mph
but this time there are tables and chairs
Mr Seow was freakingly freaky too
i thought i heard Mr Tan say hand up by the end of the day
but after history he wanted them
and junli had to chiong
he even scolded me for not writing my name on the page
well, my name was at the first page
gah whatever

YanZhang was freakingly nice during english
he helped me to put clvs in the boxes
im so lazy can x.x
i was crossing my fingers all the way as i didnt do grammar essentials
so many pages
even JunLi the so called guai kia ;P had to copy answer from the back of the book
lol?
In the end, as compo and situational exam was on Friday
she taught us the format of formal letter instead
formal letters so mafan luh :X

after recess,
had lecture on sec one express midyear grades and ct grades
1E was ok i think
didnt wear spects lah
we topped English :D
but B3 i think, not that good
1E, we must JIAYOU :D

then, we had maths
the class was so damn funny after maths
we were trying our very best not to let Mrs Ng know that Mdm Chen never come( i think)
and we had a free period
Mrs Ng: Go line up and go music room lah! still sitting there for what.
Class{Ceyong darren shahin nicholas they all i think: Erm, teacher come and get us
Mrs Ng: O.O
Class: Teacher you go lah. We wait for teacher here!
Mrs Ng: strange
Class: Go lah, Mdm Chen dont like other teachers in the class
Mrs Ng: *rubs chin* qi guai, somethings wrong
Class: golah quick lah go~

LOL something like that i think i missed some parts
so funny luh! LOL

Music- free peroid

Chinese- Zenglaoshi had meeting i think, free peroid

after school- f&n lecture
almost fell asleep ;D

after f&n lecture
One missed call from erjie LOL
suspected something though :X
called back, yay~ have free meal lol
walked to mrt with Amanda
saw Jeremy and JoonWeng again, gah
after Sembawang, KaiLing came to join me
gosh, i love her ♥
trained to Woodlands
(: so sad that i cant walk back home with her lah
next time ;D

went lobby wanted take lift down
coincidently took same lift as Erjie and Dajie
HAHA, we went to Ichiban
gosh, the cold soba Erjie ate was nice de luh!
and i realised sashimi is very nice luh!
HAA jamie
fullfull, until now havent eat dinner

shopshoped awhile
then Dajie drived me home (:
comped, then naped
and comped again ;D

ohgosh, EOYs are soming and im not mugging
though i know i must start on History
History is such a bother D:
then science, i must get the hang of it lahs
mathmathmath
i need to memorise the formulassssssssssssssssssssssss
bother
(n-2)x180=polygon(i think)

obvious ..

2008-09-23T21:01:00.002+08:00

I've lost it
I've lost it all
no more emo post?
hard
theres ups and downs in life
i didnt know
i didnt sense
well, maybe i should learn
learn to be whatever about everything
learn to not care about anything
learn to not worry about what will happen and so on
wooo.. thinking, it doesnt seem so bad?
why am i so badly affected
is it because we werent what we used to be
im afraid
that in the near future everyone of you will do that to me
hey, whats so bad?
i'll just have to walk alone
do my own things
gosh, why does it seem so hard?
yea, ill keep my distance
cause now i realise, and i alr know
that i cant
ill have none
i will be like none of you
i will have none of those smiles on your face
pathetic?
think of the bright side
ill just need to be myself (:

2008-09-22T21:01:00.004+08:00

No words can be expressed
I need excitement

2008-09-19T21:31:00.002+08:00

HAA im so in love (:

Im in love with my new phone mum supposedly 'suprised' me with
i love it lah
though its not as great as my old
but it still rocks my souls
the function is simlar to my previous phone
though it doesnt have a 3G camera which means my 3G will be wasted :x
mummy chose it for me
gosh, she knows my taste like wtf ;D
i love mummy :D

Im in love with those tortoises Corrina gave me as a bday present (:
gosh, they make my day when i reach home after a long day of schl and see them on my bed
gosh, theyre so cuteeeeeeeeeee
Corrinas so sweet :D
i dno how much i alr thanked her
but, thanks Corrina!

Im so in love with my psp
and im hurt that so many scratches are on them
though i have a case for it but im lazy x.x
and whats more, idk why, schl prohibited it to be brought
ZhuangPengs pestering me for it
sort of
sort of not
stupidddddddddddddddddd
i want to smuggle in schl lah but i guess im too cowardly ;D

Im so in love with FM static
i found out their songs are nice :D
esp 3 days l8r and tonight and definately maybe
but i still love jaychou :D:D
'Cause it's three days laterI can't stop thinking about you~
ok stop lol :D

Im so in love with 969
idk why but when we went in 969 today
i felt as if we were going to look for dinos :D
maybe because previously we always sit at the back but this time we sat in front
haaa

Im so in love with maths
i know it doesnt seem like me saying this
but i reallyyyyyyyyyyy got the hang on maths!
esp using compass part
i want at least an A
i will work hard!!!!

Im so in love with 854
i found out 854 went directly in front of our families coffee shop
ok theres still a distance to walk
but its so cool!
the distance was not as far as 969 yea
it skipped many bus stops :D

Im so in love with 1E
gosh they rock ;D
haaaaa, i can't believe 9 months alr passed as we being together as 1E'08
we are going to design class tee lerh!
then by next years January i hope we will get the shirt
as 2E'09
so coooooooooooooool
i hope no one will deprove and go to NA or whatever
gosh i love 1E ♥

xoxoxoxoxoxo

lol, tday was like so damn funny
after schl we stayed back to do the home ec sewing thing
mine was the monkey!
and im the only girl with it :D
i love it lahs!
it was damn funny to see liren and yanzhang sewing
esp yanzhang!
become so sissy liao wah!
HAHAHA
mdm ng was very patient too
hahahaha
and boonkiat will drop dead :)

we swept the classroom luh
it looked so clean in months
okaye, only for the floor
tables are still messy :B
and whiteboards not white anymore
my cancer broom keep dropping hair
and it looked botak luh!

haha
walked with junli regina jiaxuan wanteng to mrt
corrina went home
cause apparently her mom still thinks her legs arent well enough to play vball (:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH

trained to woodlands alone (:

only elaboed after schl part
cause im lazy :D
HYAH!

'Cause it's three days laterI can't stop thinking about you :D:D:D

2008-09-15T22:15:00.002+08:00

gah
this day pissed me off
can mondays get any better?

first,
when i arrived at the interchange
i couldnt spot jamie or jasmine so i waited
until i couldnt take it anymore and took the latest bus
another alternative: mrt
well, i regretted my decision
gosh, i should have taken the mrt and chionged to school
at least, im sure, i will be earlier then today

that stupid bus was so crowded
and i stood in front of the door
and what hell, it was so damn warm
gosh i havent sweat as much as i did in the bus for a very long time
and when the bus reach chongpang area,
i was shoved around the door part
cause of the overwhelming heat
i didnt make clear my senses and i didnt move to the back
i just stood there and let people push me around

when we reached our stop
which was as if an eternity had passed
the bus didnt stop
instead it dashed past the stop and stopped at khatib central
leaving every cchy student and some adults with our mouths open
then, i knew that we will be late

god, when i stepped out of the bus
it was like 10 degrees apart
with th fact that it was going to rain
all over 10 cchy students walked to school
gahhhh
we reached the backgate
assembly was going to start so we had to stand there
i was so damn pissed okaye?

furthermore, things went worse when we were lead to the foyer
and i had to pass my classroom
gosh, it was like letting your family see you getting caught by the police for having done a terrible crime
i had the sudden urge to sneak into the classroom
hyah
but changed my mind as syafiq and xinyun and hairul had caught us
and if i suddently disappeared, hoho.

we were accounted for late coming
2 demerit points
gah, ive been late for the second time
we had a reason but mr see said that its our fault for taking the late bus
he said he let us off
but we still did detention
i dont know whats the difference between letting us off or punishing us for being late
i hope we wont get the 2 demerit points

if im a over-calculating and paranoid parent
im sure i will sue the bus driver lahs
but whatever
idc anymore,
2 demerit or 4 demerit points,
i guess it doesnt make a difference anw
must do more cip!
HA crap

well, back to the classroom,
the warmth was still the same
i love that feeling
of as if having stayed away from your home for thousands of years and finally came back
good experience?
i learnt a lesson though

skipskip

after school
me, regina, corrina, cynthia, jamie, jasmine, jiamin, liren, huailong, yanzhang, shahin, joonweng, jeremy
went to cwp
to celebrate my birthday
but well, we couldnt decide where to eat and left the girls pissed off
the boys were like !@#)(*&^
hais, i dont wanna think anymore
in the end ate pizza hut
the girls went in
the boys stayed outside
discussing
whatever, we dont care abt them lerh lah

touched when jiamin and corrina wanted to pull in money for the bill
which in the end was 90 over dollars
the guys gave $26 and poofed
well, dont care, they didnt want their ice-cream (:
jiamin passed a $10 said: ru guo ni bu yao na wo jiu zhou ni
HAAAA
corrina said: dont give now, she wont accept
she gave me a $20 dollars for gst
but i die also dont want to take ;]

because of regina, we ordered wings
nicenice haaaaaaaaaa
then corrina and jamie went to the toilet
we were all waiting for them
so longgggggg
then found out, corrina went to buy me a present
awwwwwww
so sweet, thanks :D
1 pair of tortoises
mabel told me tortoises symbolises long life (:
but reminds me of darren
turtle buddy :DDDD
i hope he reads this
and TAG

then girls went to swensens
ate ice cream
regina was acting baby xDD
she saw the balloons
and me, as jimu de shen fen
got it for her
but she horh
didnt want the sky blue balloon
she wanted the torquise one
then she go take another ;x
i was making the dedication to everyone one
before passing them spoons, told them alot of crap
of course about rumors
but i just gave cynthia hers
too tired :D
but now i rmb i could have told her to treat shahin better O:

ate icecream
so fast haaaaaa
so funnnn haaaaaaaa
played with the dry ice
lol
pour water, pepper, salt
might as well put ketchup
jamie jiamin regina got high when stop and stare was played in the restaurant
stop and stare~
HAAAAA

me jasmine jiamin went to toilet
saw gwendolone
and i think 1D monitor
lol
crapped and the rest were waiting outside john little
walked home with jamie and jasmine
jiamin regina corrina cynthia trained home tgt
i was walkign and walking then suddently noticed that i was playing with the blue balloon x.x
i didnt know at all!
goshhhh
i wonder how regina got her balloon into the mrt and home LOL
balloons are fun :D

im so happaye
amongst all birthday
mine was considered quite a big one ;x
thank you 1E i love you all x))

1E, rock on (:

2008-09-14T19:01:00.002+08:00

-click to enlarge ;D

HEYO hahahahaha yeahyeah, im officially 13 now

GAHHH so old :x

thanks for all the wishes! haaaaaa~

yeps its a veryvery simple birthday, who wants to celebrate????

heeeeeeeee

andand, i accept all belated birthday gifts :D:D:D

HAHAHA kidding!

happy birthday to me~

happy birthday to me~

happy birthday happy birthday~

happy birthday to me~

THANKS JIAMIN FOR THE CAKE!!!
iloveyouuuuuuuu (:

oooo god im so high and blasting my speakers now

JAYCHOUJAYCHOUJAYCHOU

yay~ ziyue is researching on which cd shop shall we rob the jaychou new abum

and ya of course when it comes out

unless someone wants to sponsor me dajie threatened me with results!

HAHAHAHAH kidding lahs

while i was making that sort of card above i suddently missed ahgong sososososososososososososoooooo much!

that i almost cried i havent seen ahgong for like so damn longggggggggggg

ugh ):

at least ahmah and dagu came during the sept holidays

while my beloved ahgong was working

ohwell i would prefer to visit him as im 100% sure that singapore isnt his type

god, i miss his farm

yah and the boat

not to mention those bigbig-that-is-almost-the-size-of-a-horse dogs

ok kuazhang

i would swear if i can, i will fly back to malaysia visit ahgong

and hopefully my new baby cousin will be born then yay~

ohyah i want to tell benben something!

EH BENBEN

i tell you ah, you can see your picture above right

you better treat my dajie veryvery nice horh!

HAAAAAAAAA

anw, you still owe us swensens :D

dont think we will forget and its almost a year :P

and yah i haven suan zhang with you okaye for lying to me O:

you wrote that card to dajie right! dont tell me that youre daniel not benjamin

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

so lovey dovey worrrr :P

happy anniversary! :X

SWENSENNNNNNS

or you can buy me jaychou's new album

HAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAA :D

UGHHH i still cant deal with the fact that im thirteen

i feel so childish ya know im having a feeling of playing candles :X

and lanterns O:

i want to go to teletubbies hill

or maybe dajies house at least theres a bigbig garden wooooooooo~
yahyah, i want daddy to bring us to 888 so muchhhhh
to pump air into those bikes
which have been stoning outside the corridor for idk how long
quickquickquick

NOW we're waiting for mummy to comeback
go celebrate i think
or is it go teletubbies hill?
idk!
i want to play so muchh
im thirteeeeeeeeeeeeeen :D

oohyah
i forget about homework
shyt i havent done any
andand
i found out after i passed up the comprehension(late)
that i did the wrong compre
thats why i couldnt find the summary
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i shall be waiting inmy seat until mdm ng calls me up and give me a scolding
and maybe someone will be somewhere laughing
idk
ohwell
i have nth to write anymore
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

2008-09-13T21:11:00.002+08:00

Jamie made my day laaaaaaa
apparantly with a website x)
www.thispagecannotbedisplayed.com
if youre lazy, then here it is
and i love the theories there! :D

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Disgust "Fuck me."

Confusion "What the fuck.......?"

Difficulty "I don't understand this fucking business!"

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Greetings "How the fuck are ya?"

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Panic "Let's get the fuck out of here."

Directions "Fuck off."

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"What the fuck was that?"- Mayor of Hiroshima
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"What fucking map?"- "Challenger," Mark Thatcher
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HAAAAAAAA :D

2008-09-11T21:10:00.004+08:00

Theres really a prob with msn
i tried to sign in like thousand times[ok, kuazhang]
troubleshooted like siao
and when the page came, tadah, 10 people online >.>
and now, they didnt reply me
jiken did, just now, but he sudd ask if im still there then gone

siansiansian, found out i havent been posting much
well, im lazy.
cant believe that exam was like so damn fast
we are alr in an exam break for band
just finihsed holidays after comman test
and now, aft 1 week of cca, break for exam ><

monopolys have become a part of my world
:D since mummy bought it ystd night
spongebob squarepants edition somemore :D:D:D:D
raymond, me, mummy and daddy were playing last night that i had to use 99.99999% of my energy to open my eyes during science
LOL. ;D
banker banker ^^

shit, november!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i seriously need a change of phone for gods sake
this idiotic phone gets unlocked everytime
not to mention it played songs during reading period
and not to mention the lack of memory
andandand, it just cant sickeningly connect to the computer for me to upload songs.
the camara quality is like whattheshit
and the bluetooth cant wrok, at all.
the themes are like so damn freakingly awful
and there isnt a perfect picture for me to display as wallpaper
not sure if the alarm can work
and its like so freakingly hard to type
ugh.

it seems everybody is having problems with msn
GAHHHHH
i miss Corrina lahs!
im always partnerless
and wandering here and there
dont fall again please, take good good care of yourself!
dont be baika
;x
GET WELL SOOON!
hope to see you tmr! :D
-cause you promised if we are going to run 2.4 you will run with me ;D, but i doubt...

ohyah, need to bring psp for zhuangpeng tmr

since i promised him then whatever.

and anybody can tell me what are the topics for compo??
though its pushed to monday
and IDIOT F&N practical is on monday
ugh, THANKS mummy for going to help me with the recipes x)
ILOVEYOU :D
-as in my real mum

gah, i need books!!!!
i seriously need to stock up
cause lifes like wtf aft i finished twilight series
ORCHARDORCHARDORCHARD
HAAAAAAA~

almost everyones personal message is writing:
-finally can sign in
-stupid msn
0whats wrong with msn
HAHA cooooool~ :D

Countdown, 3 days (:

2008-09-09T20:54:00.004+08:00

Tagged by AARON. x)

1. The person who tag you is. A-A-R-O-N

2. Your relationship with ~~him~~/her is. FRIENDS

3. Your five impression of ~~him~~/her. - AHMAH - NAGGY -FRIENDLY -TALL -TALL -TALL

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you. ERMERM, HE BANGED ME! o:

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you. WE DIDNT SPEAK TO EACH OTHER FACE TO FACE BEFORE! XD

6. If he/she become your lover, you will... OMG, HAHAHAHA, NEVER!

7. If he/she become your lover, the thing he/she has to improve on will
be... IDK! HE WONT BE MY LOVER LAH~

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will. ERMERMERM, WONT LAH

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be. TOO TALL UNTIL I CANT SEE HIS FACE O:

10. The most desired thing you want to do for ~~him~~/her now is. PUSH him IN A WHEELCHAIR

11. Your overall impression of ~~him~~/her is. T-O-O T-A-L-L

12. How you think people around you will feel about you. IDK ._.

13. The characters you love about yourself are. IDK ._.

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are. ERM, TOO SHORTTTTTT

15. The most ideal person you want to be is. BIGBIRD, WO DE OU XIANG! HAHA

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them. I CARE FOR YOU?

17. ~~Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you~~ Name 10 people :D
01-Corrina
02-Cynthia
03-Regina
04-Jamie
05-Jasmine
06-Jiamin
07-Ziyue
08-Mabel
09-Amanda
10-Junli

18.Who is no.6 having relationship with?( Jiamin ):XXXXXXXX shhhhh~ atcl, idk

19.Is no.9 a male or female?(Amanda)A-m-a-n-d-a is a girl

20.If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?(Ziyue and Junli )They do not know each other x)

{NOTE, there is a missing question!}

22.What is no.2 studying about?(Cynthia) ermermerm, LOOLOOLOOLOO~

23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?( Regina ) today!!! :D

24.What kind of music band does no.8 like?( Mabel) Jonas Brothers =/

25. Does no.1 have any siblings?(Corrina) a sister ;DD

26.will you woo no.3?( Regina ) WTF?

27.How about no.7?( Ziyue )she has JayChou (:

28. Is no.4 single?( Jamie ):XXXXXXXXXX ermermerm........ ask ziyue :D

29.What is the surname of no.5?( Jasmine ) KHOO~ -_________________________________-

30.What 's the hobby of no.10?( JunLi ) Idk =/

31. Does no.5 and no.9 get along well?( Jasmine and Amanda )Yah, quite well x)

32.Where is no.2 studying at?( Cynthia )CCHY!

33.Talk something casually about no.1( Corrina )She followed me and tried to fly this morning .______.

34.Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?( Mabel )LOL?

35.Where does no.9 live at?( Amanda ) Sembawang XD

36.What colour does no.4 like?( Jamie ) idk :XXX

37. Are no.5 and 1 best friend?( Corrina and Jasmine )Good friends bah ;]

38.Does no.1 have any pets?( Corrina )She cant even take care of herself, at least to stop falling down. :X

39. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?(Ziyue )WTH

40. What is no. 10 doing now?( Junli )should be resting, she had a fever just now x(

DONE!!

2008-09-08T18:46:00.002+08:00

Heyoh!
hahaha ;D
i feel so damn high and im going to blog about ystd
>shiqi; this post is going to be so damned detailed, better then you ;D

ystd went bugis with shiqi & krystal
lmao, cause krystal wanted to buy tops and things, so we acced her!
met shiqi, she went to my block and we walked to breadtalk to meet krystal
it was so quiet on the way O:
then waited for krystal, slowwww ;D
when she reached shiqi waved and i hissed: bu yao li ta!
HAHAHAHA then we pretend krystal not there LOL!
trained to Jurong East then switched train to Bugis
Shiqi keep staring at alot of people in the MRT luh
dno who~
then she was sms Orica[her friend, idk who]
and i thought was _________ :D:D:D
i was deesiao-ing krystal ;D
while Shiqi wasnt looking in our direction luh; as i said she was staring at people ;D
played psp on the way ;D
And we saw cuse xian shen!
OMG shall elabo l8r :D

reached bugis then we walked to bugis junction then to bugis street
HAHA we didnt know which way to go so i used ____________'s name
ok, krystal and shiqi know what i mean cause i cant say out loud :D
then i gave the wrong direction and they keep scolding me !! O:
then walked back then saw bugis street, walked there
bugis street was so damn HOTTTTTT
as in, warm and stuffy! :D
walked walked walked
then bought boyf tees! :D
me and shiqi bought same design cause she didnt want black black :D
krystal wanted to buy hoodies but ex!
HAHA
went 2nd floor, wooo, got air-conditioner! ^^
walked there for the sake of the aircon

nth to buy ler so we walked out of bugis street
saw the bigbig OG
i realised mummy and daddy got bring us there to pray :D
went inside OG
actl was the sake of aircon :D
and also to find krystal's pencilcase
then we gave up cause there dont have then walked back to bugis junction
wth lah, so far, legs were breaking luh x.x
ok lah, its not far :x

reached, decided to eat
so since we only bought one tee, we ate sakae sushi
:D me and krystal were in a sushi craze luh
esp the prawn one :D
but shiqi only eat her udon -.-
so cooooooool!
we used the comp to order
it was like so damn convenient !
very fast come lerh!
:D nicenice ate then walked to find the pencilcase
then we were settling our money cause krystal paid the overall bill
then a old lady selling tissues come to us x.x
want us buy tissue
we cannot say no money cause shiqi was holding $50 and waving it in the air while krystal was digging her wallet
LOL
then she gave me a handful of coin so buy luh x.x

search for the pencilcase~
saw children playing fountain
omg so cute :D
hahahahahha xD
went into a department store
then called audrey, she say go wallet shop
then went to the wallet shop
i love myuk wallet/ pencilcase lah!!!!
HAHAH
i will buy one; someday xDD
krystal bought one, stres relief
telling it to bang the head so cute!
then there was a bag white and plain saying: I left my prada bag at home ROFL!

then trained home
ohyah! the cuse xian shen; mr cuse
krystal saw him, i saw his back
awwww
she say, shades, dimples, singlet, muscles
OMG hahahhahahaha
we called him mr cuse cause he cut queue, say 'cuse' then go
HAHAHAHAH cool right ;D
actl is because that women cant tap the card, then he just cut
LMAO krystal was head-over-heels with him ;D

psped, changed train at city hall
then to cwp
went home
hahahaha, FUNNNNNNNNN

omg lah, i want jaychou album, quickquickquick~

2008-09-04T20:48:00.007+08:00

funny to say
difficult to explain
but i know
i can see the difference
between the past and now

2008-09-01T19:43:00.002+08:00

6F gathering
went jurong east
omg, hahahaha, our class have many people right....
yah, 7 went
i dont think thats considered as a gathering bah xD
but we created enough noise ;D
the people who went were me, audrey, krystal, jasmine, felicia, kaihong and zhaowei
lmao lah
so damn damn pissed cause i sent many msgs and only hongyi replied
zzzzzzz! maybe its because i didnt state my name :P
whatever, too late ._.

i missed the 901 krystal and jasmine were taking
so i decided to walk instead of waiting for another 901 which will take 10 mins
i was brisk walking, thinking everybody reached
but in the end only krystal, jasmine, kaihong and zhao wei reached
so we waited for the 2 da xiaojie
audrey was so damn damn late luh! hahahaha
so we went inside cwp cause its so warmmmm
played psp and nearly banged into many many things ;D
then we went to the lobby and created alot of noise xD
then i-dont-know-how liren called jasmine
i think.
then we say lai lah~ we at 7 11 krystal here lehhhh
hahahahahah xD
you should see how krystal blushed luh! lol!
then she scared liren come then she went to take lift
then we all wanted to follow here
but then, i sway lah
too many people so i didnt go in and was stuck with kaihong and zhaowei
hmmph! %!#^&*()@
then i saw the lift go down
so we took escalator down
zzz, they werent there
so zhaowei called krystal
they were at foodcourt
wahlao luh! we took escalator up to foodcourt and damnit
THE BOYS ARE SO DAMN NOISY !!!
when we reached foodcourt, they werent there again
the zhaowei called again and they were at timezone
then we went timezone
heng~ it was end of the torture
you can guess what they said right, CRAPS
then we decided to not wait for audrey lerh, we trained to jurong.

then halfway audrey called krystal
i answered and told her that we wait at platform for her
we waited there, then when the next train came she wasnt there
she went down x.x
wahlau that zhaowei go confuse me
i ask them where she wait for us
he said entry
but then sounded like gantry
so i told audrey wait at gantry, but what is gantry?
hahahahahaha xD
lame right, yea i know ;D

went to the dno where
the place where the ice skating was there
we went macs first to eat
LOL saw jeremy
audrey saw him first then keep ohmygod ohmygod
then we thought what
lmao
after we ate went to ice skating place
too bad we didnt skate in the end
heng~ save me from throwing my face xD
cause everybody skate until so well!
apparently cause our feets were too big xD
no lah, size 6 and above skates werent available, thats why
so we decided to watch movie
LOL, wanted to go kbox derh luh ;D

bought tickets for WALL.E
but there were still time went take neoprints
the boys didnt
so they wander around
i shall post the picts next time if possible
wahlau, decorate then suddently the boys will pop out and scare us x.x
took one whole group of girls
and another jasmine me and felicia only (:
we anyhow press xD
but we dno how to put in phone x.x
lmao, nevermind :D

watched WALL.E
then i was they sway one again
sat beside zhaowei
he damn hilarious luh!
in the cinema go wear the singlet
i dont know what lah!
make me laugh till pop
he very irritating luh!
i called mummy and said we didnt skate but watched movie
then he suddently say 'i love you'
wahlao x.x
then my mum heard and ask 'why got boy's voice?'
ZZZZ and i said cause class gathering
and i smacked him until my mum finished the call
HAHAHA
then i said ' you saying i love you to jasmine can dont say it when im on the phone with my mum can anot?!' (cause jasmine was beside me and when he said it he was leaning in)
then he said if he said i love you to jasmine there are two reasons.
one: hes not wearing specs
two: the jasmine khoo isnt this jasmine khoo
wahlau, i laugh until bao luh!
x.x

WALL.E was nice but quite boring
how they explained it was only love story between 2 robots (idk who said that)
ok lah..
then after movie, we went to IMM
hahahaha, me and jasmine and audrey were being childish and we ran
we didnt want krystal and felicia to find us
then we run around IMM finding sweet talk
lol! the boys were following then everytime we changed directions they sighed
hahahahaha xD
fun luh, but then krystal and felicia didnt play so not fun lol

walked around idly
tried out the popcorn machine out of fun xD
lame right! HAHAHAHAHA
but it was quite nice
only that there were a few rotten ones which taste salty and spicy @.@
hahahaha, met with krystal and felicia
found out that the boys went to mrt
took shuttle bus to jurong east mrt and went home
901-ed with krystal

hahaha, it was nice being able to spend time with 6f people :D
must find more time again :P
6F rocks ;DDD
adn those who didnt reply me, hmmph!!!! xP

2008-08-31T18:38:00.002+08:00

OHOHAH
ok this is crazy
holidays are like shit okayes
im digging for activities to keep me from boring myself to death
since i finish eclipse and now moving on to breaking dawn
i dont see why i need to rush it all
quite she bu de to read it
and i loveeeeeee bella's wedding :D
woooahhhh
but there are some parts of confusion
which where i dont know why swimming in the ocean in midnight will have a pillow popping out
HAHAHA spoiler!
and i tell you the part where edward tore victoria's head off was cool :D
and the part where bella told jacob to kiss her is awful
and the part where bella told edwad 'i want you' left me goosebumps
cause apparently something dirty happened
oh please, it aint dirty its life ^^
and i dont understand the part when in the wedding bella was dancing with jacob why suddently he want to kill edward when bella told her that she was having honeymoonwith edward in human form
confusing...
okok, i shall stop giving spoilers for those who are still reading eclipse or breaking dawn
but when bella realised that she loved jacob too tempted me to tear their heads off :D

suddently thought of that time where mum was driving and i was in the front seat
finishing secondary one lerh luh
its like a twinkling of an eye
oh shit
i asked her whether i should take geography or history
she told me to take geography
i kindof agreed too
#1- she told me that learning history was like reading a book. nothing is going to change.it will be the same boring old stuff everytime. and that seriously made sense
#2- daddy is sort of pro in geography. that can give me great help when im learning it. he can explain things that i dont know. but only that he explains it in chinese, well, i dont think i dont have the ability to translate
#3-i seriously enjoyed revising geography rather than history and since my parents are in favor of the subject, why not?

argh, this one week will seem like an eternity
well, i only either watch tv or read or use the comp or sleep
ahahaha?
well, tmr theres a gathering for 6f
hopefully 20 and more can go
cause i dont expect all to be free right
at least i have an activity for monday
and tuesday would be band
wednesday, whole family will go for the concert
thurs band
friday....
ok im free on friday
maybe i can tell dajie to bring us to sentosa
woohoo.
then weekends again
maybe do the maths and home ecs
hahahhaa, i guess i have quite a heavy schedule?
lmao.

now need to contact hopefully all of 6f people
inform them about tmr.
bye

2008-08-29T21:28:00.002+08:00

IM SO HAPPAYE
cause i visited woodgrove!!
though i didnt see BELINDA, she left school early
hmmph! what junior :D {hope she reads this! evilllll}
and she has the same style as me
oh yay~
tmrs psle and shes still using the comp :D
like me!
and i tell her to come cchy
she said "no :x brb"
then offline
bad right :D
hahahahahaha, just kidding lah!

cchy concert was not bad
haha mabel
my eyes are like hurting every second luh!
Dx
and the puppets hahahahahahah
ok veryvery random
after that we rushed back to woodgrove
haha! even stopped by pasar malam to buy things to eat ;D

realised alot of seniors were in cchy
we didnt know luh!
like huanwen
hahahhaha

mdm ruku ahhhh
was wearing the dress that we made up a song with
we damn bad right!
yah i know ;x
when we reached there we practically walked the whole school
went to canteen to eat
VERY FULLL!
hahahahahahahaha
satisfaction
very hui wei

the concert was okay
followed i-dont-know-who to the ava there
dno how explain
jiahui say boys but i too engrossed chattering
:D

when concert was over
we help mdm ruku clear the stage
ok i didnt
i played the mic :D
jamie played bu neng shuo de mimi and an jing
pro x.x
reminds me of cchy concert, pu gong ying de yue ding, not bad ;D
i talked talked on the mic
untillll mdm ruku said that the whole school can hear me
zzz i quickly wanted to throw the mic away :D
then i was talking halfway, mdm ruku go plug out D:
HAHAHA

after the wgps thing we went to cwp
slack there
i didnt regret going popular
cause i bought breaking dawn!
OMFG IM SO HAPPAYE
theres alot there!
quick quick if you want go buy!

jiamin, lost your phone dont sad lah
i was in the same boat as you
just forget everything and think of the bright side kay
dont be depressed
nothing will come out of tears ok?
stay happy horh.

Trying to cover pain with a thin attempt at bravado

:D

2008-08-28T20:53:00.002+08:00

ABSENT
hahahahaahahah
stupid lah TT
when i woke up
my right eye was like SWOLLEN
then i looked like -.o
lmao!
stiupid{quoted from zenglaoshi)
hmmph. then whenever i blink my eyes will hurt

i fell asleep at 10 yesterday night
so when i woke up i was like so energised
but then
because of that swollen eye
i slept again :D
i woke up at 1 plus! HAHAHAHA

i was so worried i cant go to school tmr
cause of the concert and the occasion
jiamin was worried that no one will sing along with her
apparently the pu gong ying de yue thing thing
LOL.
but the doctor gave me mc for today and tmr though.
but i will go tmr :D
and i missed band tday
awwwwwwwww, ):

hais, my eye is hurting like wtf
HMMPH
saddd lah

nothing to say lerh
shit ass
im like reading eclipse at so a slowwwwwwww speed
Dx
cause whats the point of reading it finish when i dont have breaking dawn?
i will only spend time like waiting and waiting
eagerly
hahaha
nothing to say lerh
bbye

"Take a look and see, how beautiful you are."

shattered

2008-08-26T20:19:00.002+08:00

i broke my promise to myself again
no i broke 2 promises
1- i promised myself to not make any promises to myself cause for sure i will break them.
2- i broke down, once again. i promised myself not to let another tear slip out and never get rash whatever the situation
but i broke them
im so terribly disappointed with myself

jasmine, sorry for my attitude today
i guess i cant hold it, no more
thanks for accompanying me though
sorry then you may regret accompanying me
i know you ran out of words and it was a terrible situation for you
but i explained myself
God gave me a chance to
fate that we ran into each other
maybe i really must make myslef clear
and thanks for allowing me to
im so terribly sorry
really
sorry that you worried for me
but then i broke my promise
i became rash
and i started to blabber nonsense
maybe i cant keep it inside anymore
i had no one to talk to
i had no one to trust
truthfully
you are a really great friend, i know you are
thanks and sorry

one term
terrible and long
minutes seems like hours
qianhui didnt look like qianhui anymore
she went over high
and over emo at times
she wasnt back to th person she was
she knows but she refused to admit
she suffered herself, she didnt talk to anyone
she didnt know what to do
and everything seems so painful
happy moments passed
and she loves those people who gave them to her
she was a different person at home
you all may not seem to realise it
but she knows, very clear
she wanted someone to trust but her friends just care to much that she thinks she may not deserve it
one term

dont talk to me now
im insane
talking to myself
pathetic
very
i dont care already
im ignoring people now
sorry
im not in the mood
sorry
sorry
pathetic
i want to erase everything
the person that i can trust is only myself
thanks for letting me know that
now everything seem so dramatic
i want to stop
i really regret
i want to hide
i want to go to a far away place
where i dont need to act smiling and laughing
whatever is the attiude i give now
i am confused
terribly
i dont know what to do lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i want to hide
stupid
i feel so weird now

i hate myself

2008-08-24T21:01:00.002+08:00

im troubled now
i know its my second post of the day
im really very tired
stupid weather!
i on the fan it will be verycold
i off then ill start to perspire
and im troubled by tmr
i will ask ms isma for help to open my locker
what if the practical isnt there?!
then what if i still cant find it in popular?!
then i will be dead on tuesday! shyttttt
hmmph
then home ec?!
argh, i cant understand a word it says
the stupid research
i dont even know what to do!!!!!!!!!
ARGH
its 9 plus now
shytshytshytshyt
i cant stop being vulgar
and my heads thrudding!
):

:D

2008-08-24T19:38:00.002+08:00

Wellwellwell.
hehheh.
i sound cheeky huh.

im seriously waiting for the book Eclipse
I love twilight series lah!
hahahaha
i want to give TANJIAMIN a special thanks
we both finished NewMoon together but she gave me 3 days to complete eclipse
then pass it to her to read :D
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
sound confusing =/
nevermind

i feel very very excited :D
audrey jasmine and me are meeting tmr
for the fruitie tee!
yah if you rmb we sort of have a fruittie family in pri sch
hahahahaha, atl they said about class tee
CLASSTEE? we graduate le~
so i thought of a friendship tee
and better, fruittie tee!
hahahahahahaha
me-mango
audrey-apple
krystal-orange
shiqi-banana
jasmine-strawberry
felicia-papaya
jane-lemon
jiahui-lime
:D
yay~

daddy said that we maybe going to HongKong
HAHAHAHAHA.
sort of sad that he added next year TT
hahahahaha, cause alson is still 3 this year
so it will be better if its next year,
when he is more sensible
Disneyland!!!!!!
lmao
mummy wants to go HongKong thats why
but there may be a possibility of China
idk lah
but it sure must be fun
he also added the money part
we must save alot of money~
felt kindof guilty when i thought of the kbox thing
hahaha, treating 1..2...3
7 people i think
to kbox
welll, to celebrate my birthday
but i cant suddently say no
cause i know all of us wants to go mah
a promise is a promise
but i feel kindof rebellious xD
but we will go tgt, someday somehow xP

yah i gtg
to help my didi fold an aeroplane (-.-)
and help corrina do the interview
kays, bye

unnecessary

2008-08-23T21:39:00.003+08:00

Sometimes its quite hard
i know the fears hidden somewhere
but i dont know why did it exist
is it because of all those unnecessary things?
trying to shake those stupid and again unnecessary things
trying to stay cheerful is all but a cover
fine i shall just go on, and on and on
i find myself hidden in everything
the weeks passed so fast
things that make me happy
ugh well, seems temporary
pondering about things, which arent meant to be
crapping with nonsense which are also unnecessary
entertaining thought which are very unnecessary
im afraid
to lose those things
that make me smile
and even better laugh
things that go the way i want it to be
satisfaction

i try to make my day fun
and make my posts seems happy
i read happy posts that make me laugh
i read sad posts which makes me agree
i find that life isnt fair
why do certain people can
while certain people cant?
why do sometimes im like this
and other times im like that
and im clearly stating now: THIS IS NOT A EMO POST
maybe i shall insert a :D here
well.feel warm?
HAHAHAHA crap -.-

i spent my saturday finishing new moon
woow, 500 over pages in 2 days :D
im so proud of myself~
HAHAHAHAHAHA
i think i want to go out tmr, ECLIPSE
i aint that enthu for inkdeath lo
i haven finished inkspell
and i haven bought inkdeath
ok well i shall continue after breaking dawn :D

" Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars- points of light and reason. And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddently everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had change but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldnt see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything."

<(^(@@)^)>

2008-08-22T21:35:00.003+08:00

hey people! :P
weeeeell, im in a zihigh mode :D
okok, i wanted to say
ive lost my links, so if i didnt link you, im veryveryvery sorry ok!
give me your link and i will link immediately!

school was alright
sleepy though
i slept in 900 and 969
ok, it wasnt really sleeping lah
eyes closed
but then my head was heavy
then i have no music (saddddd)
so i slept luh

I continued New Moon during reading period
i was so saddened when corrina said that edward isnt going to be back until the last few chapters
or was it the last chapter?
stupid lahh....
so i will read and read then move on to eclipse
hopefully monday :D

p.e was the most boring in monthsssssss
we need to practise the aces day dance
lameeeeeeee
adamant geh kiang, kick so high! :D
hopefully he reads this that pencil/eraser/ruler/pencil case/whatever he can get his hands on chewer
yes, he chews everything
so everytime he lends something from me i will say 'you will chew it anot?!'
and there was a time he put the soft eraser into his mouth and i think ms santha saw it!
LOL. ok back to the topic

i didnt sweat at all (-.-)
and we spent our precious 1 hr! D:

science, i didnt have my pracitical.
apparantly if i dont get it by tues i will be killed
haisssssssss
locker open!!!! PLEASE
hahahaha, pathetic lah

recess was boring
found out the last stall, sell noodles one
their food is quite nice what
lol, i rmb i ate it on the first day of school ^^

the day went quickly then, maths and eng
maths i was doing revision 7
it was like only this time in 8 months that when corrina came and collect homework
i done all of them and handed them up
i feel so proud of myself :D

mdm ng lost her voice again
the sadists in out class
of course, boys cheered
lmao so bad !
then shahin and shaun and tiak hock help to deliever msgs
i was chionging history then :x
very funny luh shahin >.>
hahahahahahhaha xD

jingyu didnt want to go sectionals
wahlao i waited for them to go very long luh
they still keep going back classroom
eeee, jiamin join co le, nobody pei me go home on friday
nevermind~
walked myself to mrt, it was great though
alone
you know the feeling, but quite lonely bahs
but when reach mrt i saw monica, aneka, jiaxian and the guodong
ok, they said his name was guang guo dong so guo dong luh
not close to him i also dno lah
then i was like listen that guo dong and the girls debating
and i found out jiaxian's nickname and so on
hahaha, i didnt have any comments cause i scared l8r offend them
lmao
they went to dno who house in sembawang then i trained my own to woodlands then bused home
i found out i reached home very early
in 8 months
i reached home in 1:35 pm
im still very proud of myself :D

i realised i didnt mean many things that i said
i think i shant make any promises
no more,
with the fear of breaking them
unless it is very necessary.

" Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget; it was a hard line to walk"

(:

2008-08-21T21:05:00.003+08:00

dont cry ok?
be strong.
this is how it is supposed to happen.

band was average as usual
jingyu learnt the scale quite fast
i think faster then me bah
jiayou!!!!
i want to learnt the 'lover'
nice luh.
hahahahahaha
jazz type

while im obviously crapping here
for the sake of updating
though no body wants to tag

minzhunag: that blog is so dead? x.x i dno where to tag

i finished twilight
awwww.. the love between bella and edward fascinates me
and im moving to new moon
jiamin says there is lesser edward there
hmmph.
edward is like so ~ dno how to say
lmao

i cant find science practical lahs
hmmph.
shyt o
i used kailing's to cover me tday
i think i really need to find miss isma tmr to help open locker
):

ok lah that should be all
i really digging my mind about things to say ;x

" I cant be away from you, though you cant feel it, im always here, and i wont leave, even if you dont need me."

20082008

2008-08-20T21:45:00.002+08:00

'Well, i believe
and believe and believe'

i decided to post again
well, my blog is rotting and im thinking of shutting it down :/
fine, lets leave that to l8r for me to decide..

continue back to the i believe part
dont you think not everything is coincidence?
coincidence is just an excuse
to me
why did we know each other?
what made us know each other?
did we cross each others path?
why did we go into the same school?
they arent coincidence
its fate

there must be a reason for everything
things are made like that,
and the plan goes like this
it is supposed to be happening like this
fate.

i feel like in a debating competition
lmao
but everytime i want to sort things out,
i wanted to know why
and i really do believe in fate
coincidence is a stupid word
an excuse, for everything
we are there for each other,
fate made it like this

some people make me very happy
some people dont
if this is planned like this
then i think, lets let it just go on
we cant change fate
we cant explain why we see each other
so 'coincidentally' without arrangements

whatever

twilight is reading chilling me out
as in trilling that kind of chill
i cant stop thinking about the romance between edward and bella
edward is like so sweet luh
lmao

" His eyes were gentle but intense, and they seemed to be making my bones turn soft "

way out of hand.

2008-08-14T21:56:00.003+08:00

why do you?
why am i feeling all the hate and you're not?
why am i blaming myself for everything that has happened?

wheres your conscience?
why do you want to affect all of us?
the whole group of us
who once were so happy together.
hating is tiring
i heeded advices and i didnt hate.
well, i did, but not like you.
your hate
is intoxicating
i tried doing everything that you did to me
and i can't
why? why cant i?
why is it so hurtful for me
why did i hesitate?
call me a coward
im just not as evil as you.

why are you bent on breaking them up?
when they were so happy together
why cant you just hate me and let everything rest?
why did you hurt every single one of us?

they said, one sorry, one handshake
and everything will be fine
but sorry i cant
the hurt is too strong within me
can anyone gurantee that it will never happen again?
no. and your hate is too strong

i ought to thank you though
to let me realise that ive been blind all along
i seem so happy with you when in fact i am not.
i tried to change
and you hated more

they can feel the pain
what about me?
why dont you just slap me in the face and let the 3 of them return to what they used to be?
i know
you told many many people about me
all those bad stuffs that are weighing inside you
while me? why did i choose to keep them all inside?
why didnt i hate you like how you hated me?

why am i so stupid?
blaming myself for everything that has happened.
though all of you said that it wasnt my fault
but my conscience
it says otherwise
im hurt and regretful deep inside
its like everything that has happened is all my fault
maybe it is?

turn the clock the other way
to the point where you started hating me
hate me more
more and more and more
well you wouldnt belive me if i said i dont hate you,
i cant be bothered to.
i realised who are my true friends now.
let them be happy, please?
i beg you
i feel so bad
why dont you feel like that?
and you are still bent on breaking them up?
when they wanted to talk to their friend and youll always be there?

why dont you just hate me more?
more, to the extend
i just want them to stay happy!

now, buckets of tears
from each of us
why why why why
its all your fault!
nono, its mine
i caused everything
i am to be blamed
idk why but i feel so terribly bad
cause of you!
you may now, be sleeping so soundly and guess what
i haven complete my maths
i haven even started
do your chicken wings
laugh,like you always do
you turn all the sorrow into happiness
TO YOURSELF
THE HAPPINESS IS ONLY TO YOURSELF!
damn you won
but whats the price?!
i dont want to play any more.

congrats
celebrate
celebrate that you have achieved everything that you want.
the whole world only revolves around you!
drink your champange
while we, are here, sheding tears
idk whats wrong with me
its not your hate that makes me feel like that
but its my conscience
why?

Your decision

2008-08-13T21:01:00.005+08:00

lets go
together
to a faraway place
where no one knows us
where we can start all over again
where we can do anything we want
where we can just lie under the stars
where we can just laugh and smile all day
where we can see shooting stars everytime we look out of the windows
where the moon winks as us
where the trees talk to us
where the flowers whisper stories
where the birds sing so beautifully
where we have peace all day
where we have no worries
where we share everything we have
where the love is infinate
where stories never end
where happy endings seem so comman
where no teardrops existed
where rainbows looks printed on the sky
where the clouds never carry storms
where laughter can be heard almost everytime
where to dont have to comfort, nor to feel sad
where everyone doesnt know what is called angry
where no one experienced emoness

we'd love that
wont you?

you planned it
what can i say?

2 tests tmr
f&n science somemore
i will sure flunk them
cause the feelings still here
the feeling of standing up right, not saying '______'

maybe i shant concentrate on this
but i cant help myself
tell me why
ive heard many things
manymanymany things
i must look forward to a brighter day
but will there be one?

i want to study
and study
and study
and study
and study
and study
bury my thoughts with facts
i am going to become a bookbird

why do you even exist?
why are you here to wreck everything?
im unease

LALALALALALALA
i shall go back to this attitude
should i?
treat everything as transparent
esp you
and you
and you
and you
and this
and that
and those
and them
and him
and her
and myself
cool uh?

Qian hui*oink*

:D